Sometimes I miss the weight of that menu screen. Not the racing, not the winning. Just the cursor hovering over an empty slot, asking: What kind of driver do you want to be this time? And believing, for a moment, that the answer could change everything.

The hundredth save file is still there, I think. On a memory card in a box in a closet. It contains nothing—and therefore, everything. Every race I never ran. Every car I never customized. Every perfect lap that exists only as potential.

But files thirty through sixty are the dark ones. These are the save files where I have everything unlocked—all cars, all tracks, all gold medals—and yet I start a new file anyway. A blank slate. Why? Because completion is a kind of death. When you have beat Beat That! , what’s left? Only repetition. So I chase the feeling of the first corner, the first boost pad, the first time I hear the announcer say "Nice drivin'!" like it matters.

Looking back now, I realize those files were not just about a game. They were about the terror of a single, irreversible timeline. Real life doesn’t give you save slots. You cannot reload from "CHECKPOINT 2" after you say the wrong thing. You cannot restart the race when the person you love pulls away on the final straight. But for a few years, inside a plastic cartridge with a peeling sticker, I had ninety-nine second chances and one waiting room.