She’d aced the HSC. Not a perfect score, but good enough to get into her law degree. And now, two years later, she couldn't remember a single formula from MX1. She couldn’t recall the eight characteristics of a global citizen from Society & Culture. She had never once, in her life, needed to calculate the pH of a buffer solution.
Maya picked up the crate. It was heavy. Not with paper, but with the weight of a finished chapter.
Below that was . A whole other beast. Here, the notes weren’t frantic; they were surgical. Neat, color-coded diagrams of projectile motion. Integration by substitution steps so detailed they looked like a computer program. She remembered the absolute joy of finally understanding volumes of solids of revolution. The way a shape would just… click into being as she spun a curve around the x-axis. That joy felt like a foreign language now. hsc all notes
She didn't dump it all in. She pulled out three things: Liam’s sticky note, the tear-stained chemistry flowchart, and the brutally honest practice essay.
The smell hit first—old paper, dried whiteboard marker, and the faint, desperate tang of instant coffee. On top was her binder. She flipped it open. Hamlet. The margins were a warzone of annotations. "To be or not to be: existential crisis OR procrastination on killing Claudius?" She’d written that at 2:17 AM, her handwriting deteriorating into a frantic scrawl. Next to it was a sticky note from her best friend, Liam: “Claudius = your ex-boyfriend. Hamlet = you. Revenge = an A-range essay. You got this.” She’d aced the HSC
She snorted. She’d gotten a B+.
The rest she let fall—the volumes of revolution, the Hamlet essays, the PIP. They tumbled into the bin with a satisfying thump . She couldn’t recall the eight characteristics of a
The next layer was . This binder was bloated, threatening to burst. Module 5: Equilibrium and Acid Reactions. The pages were splattered with what looked like tea, but was probably tears. Le Chatelier’s principle made sense until it didn't. She found a flowchart she’d made, trying to memorize the difference between a strong acid and a concentrated one. At the bottom, in a moment of despair, she’d written: “If I add water to my stress, will my brain reach equilibrium?”
But she had learned something. She learned that she could survive a year of sustained pressure. She learned that Liam was a friend who would text her a dumb meme at 11 PM just to make her laugh. She learned that her mother would leave cups of chamomile tea outside her door without a word. She learned that the worst-case scenario—failing, disappointing everyone—was never as bad as the fear of it.