My Dear Bootham Now

I’ve had Bootham for over twenty years.

Bootham hasn’t changed. Not really. Sure, he’s more worn, more frayed around the edges. But his crooked smile is the same. His tiny stitched paws still reach out as if to say, “I’m still here.”

Looking at him now, as an adult, I realize something strange. my dear bootham

And Bootham has been watching over me the whole time. Do you have a Bootham in your life? Something worn, quiet, and impossibly dear? Tell me about them in the comments. I’d love to know.

When I was six, Bootham was my co-adventurer. He rode shotgun on bicycle trips down the hallway. He listened to every complaint about homework, every secret crush, every fear I couldn’t say out loud to anyone else. He never interrupted. He never judged. He just sat there, unblinking, patient as stone and soft as forgiveness. I’ve had Bootham for over twenty years

There’s a certain kind of peace that comes late in the evening, when the world finally shuts its mouth and all that’s left is the soft hum of the refrigerator and the weight of your own thoughts. Tonight, I found myself sitting on the floor, cross-legged, just… looking at my dear Bootham.

We live in a world that tells us to grow up, declutter, minimize, Marie-Kondo anything that doesn’t “spark joy.” But Bootham doesn’t spark joy in a loud, Instagrammable way. He sparks memory. He sparks continuity. He reminds me that the child who loved him is still somewhere inside me—less loud, maybe, but not gone. Sure, he’s more worn, more frayed around the edges

Some love doesn’t need to be understood. It just needs to be witnessed.

Bootham isn’t a person. Not exactly. Bootham is a small, slightly lopsided creature—half stuffed toy, half guardian of my childhood memories. His button eye is loose. His fur has long since matted into something that feels more like felt than fabric. One ear flops forward in a way that suggests he’s perpetively curious or perpetually confused. Maybe both.