Rocco-s Pov 17 -

His mother’s knock came. Two soft raps.

The world, Rocco had decided, was not built for a boy who felt everything in capital letters. At seventeen, his bones ached with a fatigue that had nothing to do with sleep and everything to do with the performance of being fine. He stood in the doorway of his bedroom, one hand pressed flat against the jamb, watching his mother cry on the phone in the kitchen. She thought he couldn’t hear her. He heard everything. rocco-s pov 17

“Roo? Meatloaf’s in an hour.”

He thought about Lena. She’d be there. She’d be wearing that denim jacket with the frayed cuffs, probably sitting on the hood of someone’s car, her feet dangling. She’d look up when he arrived, and she wouldn’t say Where have you been? She’d just tilt her head, like she already knew. His mother’s knock came

Then she’d pulled away and said, “You’re shaking.” At seventeen, his bones ached with a fatigue

He walked out into the September dusk, the air sharp with the promise of autumn. Seventeen was not an answer. Seventeen was a bridge, and he was standing in the middle, the past a dim shoreline behind him, the future a fog he couldn’t see through. But the wind on his face felt like something. Like maybe, just maybe, he wasn’t broken. Like maybe he was just becoming.

Rocco’s jaw tightened until his molars screamed. He wasn’t angry. He was a pressure cooker with a welded-shut lid. The anger was just the steam. What lived underneath was worse: a raw, skinned-knee terror that he was already becoming his father. That the short fuse, the slammed doors, the silence that ate entire rooms—it was all just code. DNA waiting to boot up.